Flash Flash!

Couple of dinky flash animation tests, I pumped out in short amount of time. Flash is Neat. Zombies, Ninjas, and Aliens are Neat.

Stepping into the Dark.

Have you ever took a step forward into a dark room, where you have never been before? slowly moving forward, shuffling your feet and slightly holding out your hand as to no hurt yourself? You can feel objects, they are familiar but you can't quite say why. The light from the doorway shows faint figures, you can almost make out what they are. Have you ever lived in that room? I have. For some time I have lived there. Not knowing what is what. Not being able to piece things together. When something starts to make sense the shadow takes it away. Change. Change has always been hard for me. It brings out my anxiety, my fear. The "what ifs". My life has taken a large change as of late. New scenery, new people, new train of thought. Facing things I have not. Grasping on to treasured friendships. Hoping that I can hold on to what I have left of the ties I have with people who mean the most to me, hoping that they grow again. Trying to regain power that I so eagerly gave away. Change has never been easy for me. For those of you who have stuck by my side, Mom, Dad, Siblings, Jason, Ashely, Michael, Devin, Jon, Jerika, I thank you. Thank you for listening to my crazy thoughts. For hearing my fears. For staying with me, though I put you in awkward situations, and tough positions. For being by my side when I scared you with my silence, for remaining there when I should have stopped talking but didn't. I thank you for letting me express and be. Thank you for not giving up on me. Thank you for staying up with me when I felt alone. For running across town at moments notice. For giving so much; time, comfort, honesty, your ear to listen, your shoulder to cry on. But mostly thank you for the example you set the friendship we have, and the love you share. Thank you for helping me find me again. 

Have you ever took a step forward into a dark room, and found what you where looking for? I have.

Eurydice 1.

Beginning My Process for Eurydice

My emotional response after reading the play:

Watercolor research:

A Little Cliche

SO I'm usually against blogging someone else's  lyric but this song fits exactly my life at this moment. everything. so those who wonder what the voices in my head are saying its:

This is not the end
This is not the beginning,
Just a voice like a riot
Rocking every revision
But you listen to the tone
And the violent rhythm
Though the words sound steady
Something empty's within 'em

We say Yeah!
With fists flying up in the air
Like we're holding onto something
That's invisible there,
'Cause we're living at the mercy of
The pain and the fear
Until we dead it, Forget it,
Let it all disappear.

Waiting for the end to come
Wishing I had strength to stand
This is not what I had planned
It's out of my control....

Flying at the speed of light
Thoughts were spinning in my head
So many things were left unsaid
It's hard to let you go...

(Oh!) I know what it takes to move on,
I know how it feels to lie,
All I wanna do
Is trade this life for something new
Holding on to what I haven't got

Sitting in an empty room
Trying to forget the past
This was never meant to last,
I wish it wasn't so...

(Oh!) I know what it takes to move on,
I know how it feels to lie,
All I wanna do
Is trade this life for something new
Holding on to what I haven't got

What was left when that fire was gone?
I thought it felt right but that right was wrong
All caught up in the eye of the storm
And trying to figure out what it's like moving on
And i don't even know what kind of things I've said
My mouth kept moving and my mind went dead
So, picking up the pieces, now where to begin?
The hardest part of ending Is starting again!!

All I wanna do
Is trade this life for something new
Holding on to what i haven't got...

This is not the end
This is not the beginning,
Just a voice like a riot
Rocking every revision
But you listen to the tone
And the violet rhythm
Though the words sound steady
Something empty's within 'em
(Holding on to what i haven't got)

We say Yeah!
With fists flying up in the air
Like we're holding onto something
That's invisible there,
'Cause we're living at the mercy of
The pain and the fear
Until we dead it, Forget it,
Let it all disappear
(Holding on to what i haven't got!)

artist:Linkin Park

Song: Waiting for the End